No sign of Sun, only fog in view

Ode' to the title, this is what my summer feels like. Yes, it is hot as fuck but my summer isnt as great as i wouldve hoped for. For one, my very 1st day of summer vacation i got into a car accident. My parents flipped and took my car away for a month. I get it back and accidently brushed up against some branches and it BARELY scratched my car. And so yet i again i get it taken away til school starts. hhaa it just never ends with me i guess. haha. I really miss my boyfriend, hes been gone for about 6 days now and really it feels like months. Im so used to seeing him everyday and now its like im in prison or something without him. I guess hes just the one person i cant live without =D Besides all this, nothing really has been new except that i start school pretty soon, mega bust, but it is my last year, than im off to chicago with the boyfriend =D Im torn between two paths im willing to take, the art path and make barely any money whatsoever or go the medical way and become a nurse and make BANK! haha. For security reasons im leaning more towards medical. haha. Its going to be hard though, to consider the fact that needles make me cringe a little BUT i will conquer all, due to the fact of a great paycheck haha!

-O

JAYO!!!

Meet the love of my life....JAYO! Her name comes from my boyfriends name (Jason) and my name combined, which equals...JAYO! He gave me her for my birthday and seriously she is THE best birthday gift ever. I had the best birthday ever this year, out all the 16 that ive had, 17 was the best. I spent the whole day with Jason. We went to LA and were rolling fucking balllllssss. hahah it was amazing like always. I told him i wanted to take a break from the e since we do it almost every weekend but its fucking hard to stop hahah. That sounds really bad but seriously it is. I was told if you take e alot, it makes you depressed when your older. I DONT WANT THAT. But the feeling e gives me is so hard to give it up. ahhaha. ahhhhhhh i need to learn self-control.

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Could Life Not Get Any Better

I mean really, its been going really well these past two weeks. I now have a boyfriend, JASON<3, he treats me well and thats all i could ask for =D ahhh school is almost over also, i love life right now!
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It's Over

Today is such a depressing day. My easter break has finally come to an end, it just makes me want to cry. By this time tomorrow, i will be sitting in a hell hole of a room, consisting of a rambling dyke talking about pointless history that i will never use in my lifetime. I am now eagerly counting the days til summer.
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Hey, Its been awhile blogger

I haven't seemed to find the time to sit down and write down my little daily posts on blogger. Lets re-cap shall we :) Well I finally got me car, I got the scion xd. I named him Sebastian the unicorn. Haha my best friend, Estefania helped me name him. We named him that because its white and its got this black antenna sticking out the top which reminded me of a horn, so thats where the name derives from. Its acustom for some reason in my family to name their car, haha wierd i know. And im loving it because i got it before spring break which is about to come to an end on wednesday. Such a bummer, but I got two weeks, which is one more week than most other schools. Thats right im awesome. haha. AND ive experienced the greatness of British television. I was introduced to an amazing television show titled 'SKINS.' You can compare it to the OC, just placed in England, and add loads and loads of sex and cursing, with amazing british accents and slang. Such as 'wanker' and insults such as 'horse fucker' ahhaha. LOVE IT! I recommend this to every person living on earth to watch this show, cause you will get addicted and devote a whole day to watching it like me and estefania did, hahah YES it did happen and we loved it! Til' my next post!
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YESTERDAY: April 2, 2009

I SAW LILY ALLEN at the wiltern in Los Angeles with my best friend forever, Estefania. THE best show and day of my life. What a success it was. We met the coolest guy ever for one, who goes by the name of Josh Griffith. Just a normal 17 yr old boy with a story to tell through an acoustic guitar on the street. haha. He told us give me any topic and I will sing about it. We gave him the topic of how Hannah Montana sucks. He sang it right in front of her movie premiere that was taking place, haha how ironic. He was one person who I fully truly appreciate with all my heart.
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Fly Away

I want my issues to fly out the window, so there will be nothing left except peace within my mind. I was reading today an a magazine the essence of a person's number. Which consists of the month you were born and the day you were born on. Well my number is 2, it said for the month of April, that the things I work hard for will pay off towards the end of the month. I hope those number astrological things are correct in some way shape or form.
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Bring in the Violinist

So i have been in this certain sticky situation for the past 5 months. It involves a really close friend of mine and $300 dollars. I'm not one to name names, so for this certain post his name will be Bob. I lent Bob $300 dollars of my parents money about 5 months ago. When i put that $300 into his hand he said OK I will get this back to you. I agreed happily, believing he really would. Well, 5 months have now passed and I'm getting fed up, almost as much as my parents are. I mean it was not my money that I worked for, it was theirs that they worked hard for. It was extremely bad judgement on my part and I wish I could take everything back. My parents want to sue him, and at first I was scared because it might harm our friendship, but now I could care less about he feels. I mean he has had 5 months to pay it back and me nor my parents have even seen a penny. So I'm ready to file some legal papers and for him to bathe in the mess hes created among my family and among his stupid petty actions. This is another reason why guys are complete idiots. haha. My trust for them as a species just keeps going down the drain. haha. This is why I would like a violinist because it would fit perfectly when I hear him crying a river about all the money he is going to lose by this lawsuit.
-O

What a Beautiful Dreamer

Dreams, by definition are a series of images, ideas, emotions, and sensations occurring involuntarily in the mind during certain stages of sleep. For the past week, I haven't been sleeping quite great, except for last night. I dreamt of living somewhere I've never even imagined. One image that I vividly remember is peeking through some shudders in an old house and just seeing flowers upon the horizon. I think this dream is trying to tell me I need a vacation. ahah. Only a couple more weeks til' Easter vacation, I'm anxious in anticipation. I'm praying I get my car by then. Fingers crossed everyone! Lately, Ive been painting and I keep starting new projects that i cant seem to finish. I tend to grow tired of my paintings after a days work. Seems like nothing even compares to the best one Ive done. But as an artist, I need to believe that I cant compete with that one particular piece, because that was a different idea and to me nothing will look or seem as good. This stupid artist block as I like to call it, is blocking my concentration on greater things to be painted ahead of me.
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EMBRACEMENT

This morning was amazing. I had a 90 minute facial, my face now feels like pure butter. AWEE spa treatments, they never get old =D
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Central & Remote

Is it fair that I get cut off from money from my parents at 16, while my brother still mooches off them at 25? And by MOOCH i mean that my parents pay for his education, gas bill, phone bill, taxes, car insurance, and etc. hmmm i wonder who's the favorite in the house. haha. So now its like a fer sure deal that I have to go out and get a job, what a bummer but it was bound to happen eventually. I want to see the far side of any mountain that ends up swallowing the sky. Or in other means, I want this tension in my family to disappear and go away for ever. I want the separation to begin already, one more year til I will be 18 so i can finally see that far side of the mountain. I want to speed through the valleys, leaving everything behind, with those bad memories behind me. Time seems to torture us. You can either want it to go by fast or you don't want what your living to go away. But we all know time doesn't care about what you want. It has no conscience nor emotions. So all we can do as a society is count our blessings everyday, cause if not than you just become a pretentious biased human salty being. haha. Is my point now central and remote in your mind?
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hahha herbs

got my head feelin like 5454845 pounds. hahha woooooooooooo =D
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UGH

What a day today has been. I have been through so much in the past 24 hours its ridiculous. Words cannot even describe how I'm feeling. Lets just say I cant trust anyone in my family except my 26 year old cousin. FML! I can't even trust my own brother who always has my back. GAHHH!!! I need to get out of this rut.
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WOW IM IN AWEEEEEE

Last night I experienced WATCHMEN. YES, it was fucking AMAZING! I have nothing bad to say about it, it was that good. I have to say it is 100x better than the dark knight. Everything about this movie was incredible, from dialogue to the infamous sex scenes, to the intense fight sequences. I now want to read the book and just awe in its glory. haha I probably sound like a big nerd right now. So, I give this movie like 1 million stars it was that great.

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OH Man I Forgot

to mention that I got drug tested today. hahah. what a trip that was. I've also been behind in my painting, I can't seem to find time to finish, booo.
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Cover

I discovered a cover song of one of the greatest bands ever, EARTH WIND AND FIRE! It's by an all girl band, rio en medio. The singer is very talented, and her vocals for 'lets groove tonight' are in perfect proportion with the beat. I'm very critical when it comes to music and so I give this cover two thumbs up :) feel free to check it out: www.myspace.com/daniellestechhomsy
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Visions Blurred

Life can be so beautiful, but they say without suffering there is no sincerity in beauty. True. As we get older, all our visions become blurred and we wonder how we got to where we are in life. We thank our parents, for making us the people we are today and having them shape and define us into well mannered human beings. Because for one, this world can get so crazy, with people with indifferent personalities talking about all they know, and those odd balls humming tunes you haven't heard in ages. haha. It's just the way the world works, the ball rolls, the flag swings, the drummer drums, and so forth, so no shame in suffering, as long it shows the true sincerity of beauty in life. So, I'm keeping my glasses on, because having my vision blurred leads to nothing.
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Kid, You'll Move Mountains

They say your eyes are your best keys to unlock the true perception of reality. True in some sense, but confidence, attitude, the people you know, and the time you have are what really make reality. Don't you think?
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What A Fantasy

I would kill to write for http://deathandtaxesmagazine.com/ this magazine. They really cover everything I am interested in. GAH my fantasies need to become reality.
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I'm Drooling

Over this man by the name Josh Beech. He is down right STUNNING. And Julien Quévenne comes in second place. YES!

-O

I Gotta say MMM

I ditched school today, due to the fact that it was career day. POINTLESS! I loved the fact of waking up at 9 and just laying in bed thinking, I don't have to do anything today =D My brother is taking me out to lunch for helping him with his art projects. Best brother I could ever ask for haha. Today should be a good day!
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Bliss

Is currently in thought. I love late nights when i have nothing else to do but YouTube surf. I came across this genius film student's trailer. I was very impressed. What a coincidence that he attends the same film school as my best friend forever, Albert :)
You can watch the video here : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hnepHq9iQ3Q
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A Conclusion

I've come to the fact that I dislike a lot of people in my life. 90% of them go to my school, nothing I can do about that. I try and be corgile towards them but deep inside they just hit my buttons and it makes me want to explode. My best friend and I dislike the same people haha and we were saying we need to meet more people just like us. But its hard at a school where everyone has something up their ass or is a total idiot and cares about how big there tits are in front of a ugly ass red neck football player. But yet again, we all know the world isnt perfect and you have to be somewhat of a people person to get by in this idea we call life.
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Inspiration

I'm just flooded with inspiration right now. I've got two big canvases ahead of me and I can not wait to actually start painting my heart out. My ideas are unique, stuff I have never even thought of before. I'm starting to really challenge myself in my art. I also got the offer to be in my best friends movie as an extra. But i couldn't accept the offer, due to the fact that the filming is Friday morning and I have school. WHAT A BUST!
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Im Officially

A RED HEAD! I love it. The color does me justice =D
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Im So...

Grateful for this crappy economy right now for one specific reason: the tax percent going up. WHY? Due to the fact that before it happens, which is soon, I WILL BE BUYING MY CAR! Best news I have heard all day!
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You Hear Colors

I've got a new concept for a new piece to be hung upon my wall. I've been picturing it over and over in my head, all thats left is to sketch it out. Should be a one of kind. Never really done anything like it before, should be interesting how it turns out. It involves a fustrated face with only the keys to unlock its own identity. AHH LAS my muse has returned!
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Gahhh

I've noticed I've been saying the words "I WANT!" lately. I want a boyfriend. I want a car. I want money. I want new clothes and shoes. I want good grades. I want a job, just because it would make my parents proud :) All these things that I want I can make happen, but the fact of the matter is I'm lazy. And for the boyfriend topic, I don't rush things in that field. I let time take its course, things usually work out for the better that way. I also want high school to be over with, I'm done with the snobs and meat heads everywhere in plain sight. I'm ready to start my future and live my life to its fullest. I WANT TIME TRAVEL TO BE REAL!
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WoW I Feel So Accomplished

So last night, i had super super bad cramps in my stomach like no other, which entailed me getting no sleep whatsoever. When my mom comes in to wake me up in the morning I'm already awake and my cramps went away and i faked still having them to not go to school. O YES it worked. ahaha. Man now the only con will be being bored out of my mind. The plan for the day, bum it on the couch and watch movies and eat.
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Breathe it in

Soo I believe me and my best friend have planned out our venture for next weekend. It involves eating some type of fungi that grows out of the ground and inhaling fresh herbs that mother nature gives us, if you catch my drift. I cannot wait. I have'nt done things of this nature in a good six months. Which I consider in my book way too long. My school does random drug tests, which entail you pissing in a cup. But i highly doubt we will get drug tested, due to the fact that they only test the people highly involved in school activities. Well til' my next post blogger.
-O

<3

I love my friends, especially Jose Miranda. He always makes me smile.

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It's Love Day!

The infamous Valentines Day, what a joke. I personally don't believe in this holiday, always have always will. And I'm not bitter towards this holiday whatsoever its just my personal belief. Today I am going out to lunch with my favorite aunt and mi madre, then later tonight I'm hanging out with my best friend forever. So yeah today will be an excellent day. And I've got lily allen stuck in my head so that just overall makes my day :)
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I curse sickness

Ive been feeling like shit all day. Im even writing this post from my bed because i feel to weak to sit at my desk. My mom says i probably have an ear infection. I dont know what is wrong with me but i have the aches and pains, a killer headache, and mad case of becoming light headed when I walk. I dont dig this feeling too much. haha. I got in the car today on my way home and my mom said she had something that would brighten my day. It was a voicemail on her phone from my brother's ex girlfriend, who was in fact the most warm hearted and most amazing person i have ever met. He broke her heart im not sure how many times, and told me and my mom not to talk to her anymore since they were broken up. So that is why it was a shocker hearing from her cause its literally been almost a year and a half since we have heard from her. She was seriously the best thing to ever happen to my brother and I dont know why he cant realize it, when now he is dating this stupid selfish bitch that no one in my family likes. haha sorry for the harsh words but its true. So my over all concluding statement would be, I NEED MEDS!
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AMAZING NEWS

My awesome friend estephania is buying my lily allen ticket for april 2. SOOOO EXCITING. I LOVE HER TO DEATH!!! and nigga i will pay you those 10 bucks :) Best news i have heard in awhile and I LOVE IT!
-O

Mirror Mirror on the Wall

I daydream a lot during the day. I guess this post can go right along side my identity post. These are all just questions and thoughts that come to my mind during the day for those who actually read my blog and are interested in my sense of mind. I heard a quote today in my English class which is, "Men look at themselves in mirrors. Women look for themselves."-Elissa Melamed. This quote completely influenced my little theory and here it is. Mirrors. Where did our fascination with mirrors begin? Why is it seven years of bad luck to break a mirror? Why did Candyman and Bloody Mary have to come through a mirror? From fortune tellers to carnivals, there's always been an almost magnetic attraction between mankind and that reflective piece of glass. Once we mastered how to make mirrors, the charm of the looking glass only became more powerful. Back in the day, mirrors were a luxury only the rich could afford. This might have just been a reflection of the idea that only the privileged had to worry about what they looked like, but as these objects became more accessible, they may have very well helped the human species evolve. Why? My idea being because when there's a mirror around, you cant play dumb. The vital questions of life and the day get asked in the mirror: "Am I who I want to be?", "What will other people think of this shirt?", "Wow, am I really that tired?", "Am I who I say I am?", "Why did I get into a fight with that dude?", and "Should I be working out more?" just to name a few. haha. The answers mirrors force us to face aren't always easy pills to swallow. You can lie all you want to a mirror, but a mirror will never lie to you. Or will it? If you've ever been to a carnival or fair, there's a good chance you've seen a House of Mirrors. This attraction is dedicated to mirrors that lie for fun. These mirrors stretch you, make you fat, cut inches off your height, and distort your face. And people actually pay for these lies, believe it or not. One fact that is not hard to believe is that we just cant stay away from mirrors. Even if somethings telling you those jeans you are trying on don't fit, they just look too good in that mirror to put back on the shelf. And you bought them anyway, didn't you? But yet again, hindsight is 20/20, if you let a mirror tell it.
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OOHH NO A FLOOD!

I feel a flood coming on in my life right now. I need to get a job so bad for two reasons, i owe my parents more than 300 dollars, and two i need to buy a ticket to go see lily allen on april 2. I am thinking of selling some stuff on ebay, such as this coach purse i have and have only used once. I bought it brand new at the coach store for like $250, but im not sure how much i should sell it on ebay for. Anyone know how much it would probably go for? Hmm...I have other things im sure that i can sell on ebay but i cant bring myself to sell them, such as two animal collective tickets, which i WOULD NOT sell for my life. Even though im sure i could sell them for like $400 but no way in hell.
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I WANT

MY CAR ALREADY!!!!
hhahaha
my dad showed me my personalized checks last night
which means i must be close =D
-O

An Element of Another Element

Identity: How do you know who you are? How do others perceive you? Does our identity define us, or do we define our identity? In a world where the ability to control and shape your sense of self is ever increasing, the concept of identity has become more flexible and adaptable than ever before. Whether it's musicians and artists who develop alter egos and personas to use when creating art or performing on stage, those who escape into characters of their own creation in virtual worlds, or utilizing advance in technology to design custom made products tailored to personalized specifications - crafting a unique identity bolsters individuality, and helps one to stand out from the crowd. I someday want to identify what identity is all about, and highlight the spectrum of influences that make up and shape other people's identities.
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I Want the Sun

For the past two days there has been nothing but doom and gloom in orange county. I HATE IT! I want the sun to come busting through the clouds and warm my blood from these cold rainy days. I want the sun to shine through my bedroom window and wake me up because its in my eyes. haha. I hope this rain soon passes, because i am just not a rain type of person.
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Questionable

Today was very exciting. I went to go test drive two of the cars I am interested in getting. One being the mini cooper and the other being a scion xd. At this current moment I am leaning more towards the scion for due to the size. My dad told me to make my decision over this current weekend. And I'm pretty sure I've made my final decision. So by this time in a couple weeks I will hopefully have a scion xd sitting in my driveway :) I also had to attend a fancy dinner with the fam bam, which included my grandma and my brother's girlfriend. Not to sound like a pessimist, but they just are not my favorite to be around. I found myself to be testy and i guess you could say a bitch. haha. But at least its over now. Since that had ended, I find myself sitting in front a bright lit computer screen and nodding to the music of Q-Tip.
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SHOCKER!

Holy fucking shit. The moms and I got into a little bit of a tiff last night, which entailed for her not talking to me and having the tension be to a level where you can cut it with a knife. Driving home with her was awkward because there was no conversation what so ever. Once we got home i looked at the mail and my dreaded report card came. I was expecting all C's and one B. I opened it up anxiously and i had 3 B's and 2 C's. Seriously I was the happiest person on earth. Showing my mom the most anticipated report card, her face turned from a frown to a smile. haha. Perfect day for my report card to come. Thank you Jesus. haha.
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Sorry Mr. President

I haven't gotten the time to congratulate Mr. Barack Obama on being our first african american president of the United States of America. Mr. Obama I cant wait to see what you can do for our nation in its time of need. Even though i was not able to vote in this years election, i would just like to say that you would have gotten my vote. And a big thanks on your unique voting posters, due to those i made my own :)
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Earth?

So I've been hearing stories about the new 'Google Earth' having to deal with oceans. Seems terribly interesting, and Google executives have been saying how society as a whole does not know a lot about the oceans, which i think is 100% true. I must download this and see for myself.
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Olivia, Quit Collecting Clouds

Every Monday through Friday I have to wake up at 6:30. It is a pain in the butt and I deal with it because I'm somewhat of a morning person. Yet today, i found myself waking up a little earlier and just reflecting and imagining a different world. One where people consisted of optimistic minds and hearts of gold. It was one of those feelings where one just imagines things being totally different, a complete opposite of the current state of time. Then my world disappeared by the sound of my moms voice saying "Ollie its time to wake up" and the pounce of my cat on my stomach.
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HA!

In my opinion, situations involving ex boyfriends are the biggest waste of time. I'm not going to name names, but this one is ridiculous in every possible way. Yes, i did love him when i was going out with him, but now after a of year not dating him and talking to him here and there, my feelings for him have most defiantly disappeared. When talking to him, he would ask questions about what Ive done with other guys, when i wasn't with him. My response to this question entailed me lieing, because most of my actions, lets just say, have not been christian decency. haha. And not to sound cold hearted,but i could care less about him and his opinion towards me. So if he does end up reading this, i hope he laughs cause I'm laughing while writing this. Smile bitch cause I sure am :)
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I Made A Killing

Wowzers! Today was amazing. I told my mom i needed to go shopping due to the factor i had a tons of gift cards. Well we end up going into stores, where i ended up robbing my mom out of her money. haha. She spent over 200 dollars on me and she didn't even think she was going to spend a penny. haha sorry mom. Well today was a success :)
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A Certain Set of Mind

"And now im free from those infectious fairy tales, that plagued our plado minds and wills."

I guess this phrase is a good compliment to this certain post. I took my brain for a little walk today, my thoughts reflected the people in my life and in general what I'm doing with my life. I surrendered to the conclusion how grateful i am to have everything that i have. I feel for those that are less fortunate, and i thank God every day for the life i live. A year back, i found God to be a myth, something people just made up back in the day, due to boredom. Then i realized the world was too magnificent in every possible way, due to the dew drops on blades of grass or even a leaf dwindling in the wind. I enjoy taking my brain for walks, due to my thoughts are always constantly sprinting throughout my brain. Maybe that's why I am always exhausted at the end of every day.

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Hmm I'm not a fan of waiting games

I'm living a frustrating situation. I got my drivers license in September of 2008 and i have NO CAR! It actually took me three tries to actually get my drivers license but i guarantee you, i am a good and safe driver. haha. My mistakes were careless and i couldn't believe i did them, what a trip that overall month was. I ended up crying both times i failed and i ended up crying again once i passed because I was so happy. But yes, i have my licence and no car. My parents have the money to buy me a car, but their own dilemmas seem to get in the way and plus they have trust issues with me. hmm, with one parent being more lenient than the other, this whole situation on my half is just a waiting game :/
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A New Thing

First Day on Blogger. Very exciting in the life of Olivia right now. haha. The blog community has most definitely grown on me over the past couple months, in which influenced my decision to make one of these. Ive also created a rcrd.lbl profile which actually i have no use for. It seems like rcrd.lbl is a website for downloading music and reading artists' blogs. Yes I get free mp3's, major plus, but no way to express myself in the way I would like to. Well i guess since this is my blog, i should at least describe myself a tad. I'm 16, and i have interests in a variety of fields that influence my life on a day to day basis. Im kind of confused on my future ahead of me. I thought i had it all planned out but now im starting to second guess myself, and trying to figure out what really will make me happy. I graduate high school next year, which is sooner than i thought. Sometimes i feel life is just passing me by, and others around me know exactly where they are going in life. I guess you can call it what it is, 'LIFE'. I tell myself you will figure it sooner or later, you just cant rush things.
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