I'm Drooling

Over this man by the name Josh Beech. He is down right STUNNING. And Julien Quévenne comes in second place. YES!

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I Gotta say MMM

I ditched school today, due to the fact that it was career day. POINTLESS! I loved the fact of waking up at 9 and just laying in bed thinking, I don't have to do anything today =D My brother is taking me out to lunch for helping him with his art projects. Best brother I could ever ask for haha. Today should be a good day!
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Bliss

Is currently in thought. I love late nights when i have nothing else to do but YouTube surf. I came across this genius film student's trailer. I was very impressed. What a coincidence that he attends the same film school as my best friend forever, Albert :)
You can watch the video here : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hnepHq9iQ3Q
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A Conclusion

I've come to the fact that I dislike a lot of people in my life. 90% of them go to my school, nothing I can do about that. I try and be corgile towards them but deep inside they just hit my buttons and it makes me want to explode. My best friend and I dislike the same people haha and we were saying we need to meet more people just like us. But its hard at a school where everyone has something up their ass or is a total idiot and cares about how big there tits are in front of a ugly ass red neck football player. But yet again, we all know the world isnt perfect and you have to be somewhat of a people person to get by in this idea we call life.
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Inspiration

I'm just flooded with inspiration right now. I've got two big canvases ahead of me and I can not wait to actually start painting my heart out. My ideas are unique, stuff I have never even thought of before. I'm starting to really challenge myself in my art. I also got the offer to be in my best friends movie as an extra. But i couldn't accept the offer, due to the fact that the filming is Friday morning and I have school. WHAT A BUST!
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Im Officially

A RED HEAD! I love it. The color does me justice =D
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Im So...

Grateful for this crappy economy right now for one specific reason: the tax percent going up. WHY? Due to the fact that before it happens, which is soon, I WILL BE BUYING MY CAR! Best news I have heard all day!
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You Hear Colors

I've got a new concept for a new piece to be hung upon my wall. I've been picturing it over and over in my head, all thats left is to sketch it out. Should be a one of kind. Never really done anything like it before, should be interesting how it turns out. It involves a fustrated face with only the keys to unlock its own identity. AHH LAS my muse has returned!
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Gahhh

I've noticed I've been saying the words "I WANT!" lately. I want a boyfriend. I want a car. I want money. I want new clothes and shoes. I want good grades. I want a job, just because it would make my parents proud :) All these things that I want I can make happen, but the fact of the matter is I'm lazy. And for the boyfriend topic, I don't rush things in that field. I let time take its course, things usually work out for the better that way. I also want high school to be over with, I'm done with the snobs and meat heads everywhere in plain sight. I'm ready to start my future and live my life to its fullest. I WANT TIME TRAVEL TO BE REAL!
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WoW I Feel So Accomplished

So last night, i had super super bad cramps in my stomach like no other, which entailed me getting no sleep whatsoever. When my mom comes in to wake me up in the morning I'm already awake and my cramps went away and i faked still having them to not go to school. O YES it worked. ahaha. Man now the only con will be being bored out of my mind. The plan for the day, bum it on the couch and watch movies and eat.
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Breathe it in

Soo I believe me and my best friend have planned out our venture for next weekend. It involves eating some type of fungi that grows out of the ground and inhaling fresh herbs that mother nature gives us, if you catch my drift. I cannot wait. I have'nt done things of this nature in a good six months. Which I consider in my book way too long. My school does random drug tests, which entail you pissing in a cup. But i highly doubt we will get drug tested, due to the fact that they only test the people highly involved in school activities. Well til' my next post blogger.
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<3

I love my friends, especially Jose Miranda. He always makes me smile.

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It's Love Day!

The infamous Valentines Day, what a joke. I personally don't believe in this holiday, always have always will. And I'm not bitter towards this holiday whatsoever its just my personal belief. Today I am going out to lunch with my favorite aunt and mi madre, then later tonight I'm hanging out with my best friend forever. So yeah today will be an excellent day. And I've got lily allen stuck in my head so that just overall makes my day :)
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I curse sickness

Ive been feeling like shit all day. Im even writing this post from my bed because i feel to weak to sit at my desk. My mom says i probably have an ear infection. I dont know what is wrong with me but i have the aches and pains, a killer headache, and mad case of becoming light headed when I walk. I dont dig this feeling too much. haha. I got in the car today on my way home and my mom said she had something that would brighten my day. It was a voicemail on her phone from my brother's ex girlfriend, who was in fact the most warm hearted and most amazing person i have ever met. He broke her heart im not sure how many times, and told me and my mom not to talk to her anymore since they were broken up. So that is why it was a shocker hearing from her cause its literally been almost a year and a half since we have heard from her. She was seriously the best thing to ever happen to my brother and I dont know why he cant realize it, when now he is dating this stupid selfish bitch that no one in my family likes. haha sorry for the harsh words but its true. So my over all concluding statement would be, I NEED MEDS!
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AMAZING NEWS

My awesome friend estephania is buying my lily allen ticket for april 2. SOOOO EXCITING. I LOVE HER TO DEATH!!! and nigga i will pay you those 10 bucks :) Best news i have heard in awhile and I LOVE IT!
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Mirror Mirror on the Wall

I daydream a lot during the day. I guess this post can go right along side my identity post. These are all just questions and thoughts that come to my mind during the day for those who actually read my blog and are interested in my sense of mind. I heard a quote today in my English class which is, "Men look at themselves in mirrors. Women look for themselves."-Elissa Melamed. This quote completely influenced my little theory and here it is. Mirrors. Where did our fascination with mirrors begin? Why is it seven years of bad luck to break a mirror? Why did Candyman and Bloody Mary have to come through a mirror? From fortune tellers to carnivals, there's always been an almost magnetic attraction between mankind and that reflective piece of glass. Once we mastered how to make mirrors, the charm of the looking glass only became more powerful. Back in the day, mirrors were a luxury only the rich could afford. This might have just been a reflection of the idea that only the privileged had to worry about what they looked like, but as these objects became more accessible, they may have very well helped the human species evolve. Why? My idea being because when there's a mirror around, you cant play dumb. The vital questions of life and the day get asked in the mirror: "Am I who I want to be?", "What will other people think of this shirt?", "Wow, am I really that tired?", "Am I who I say I am?", "Why did I get into a fight with that dude?", and "Should I be working out more?" just to name a few. haha. The answers mirrors force us to face aren't always easy pills to swallow. You can lie all you want to a mirror, but a mirror will never lie to you. Or will it? If you've ever been to a carnival or fair, there's a good chance you've seen a House of Mirrors. This attraction is dedicated to mirrors that lie for fun. These mirrors stretch you, make you fat, cut inches off your height, and distort your face. And people actually pay for these lies, believe it or not. One fact that is not hard to believe is that we just cant stay away from mirrors. Even if somethings telling you those jeans you are trying on don't fit, they just look too good in that mirror to put back on the shelf. And you bought them anyway, didn't you? But yet again, hindsight is 20/20, if you let a mirror tell it.
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OOHH NO A FLOOD!

I feel a flood coming on in my life right now. I need to get a job so bad for two reasons, i owe my parents more than 300 dollars, and two i need to buy a ticket to go see lily allen on april 2. I am thinking of selling some stuff on ebay, such as this coach purse i have and have only used once. I bought it brand new at the coach store for like $250, but im not sure how much i should sell it on ebay for. Anyone know how much it would probably go for? Hmm...I have other things im sure that i can sell on ebay but i cant bring myself to sell them, such as two animal collective tickets, which i WOULD NOT sell for my life. Even though im sure i could sell them for like $400 but no way in hell.
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I WANT

MY CAR ALREADY!!!!
hhahaha
my dad showed me my personalized checks last night
which means i must be close =D
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An Element of Another Element

Identity: How do you know who you are? How do others perceive you? Does our identity define us, or do we define our identity? In a world where the ability to control and shape your sense of self is ever increasing, the concept of identity has become more flexible and adaptable than ever before. Whether it's musicians and artists who develop alter egos and personas to use when creating art or performing on stage, those who escape into characters of their own creation in virtual worlds, or utilizing advance in technology to design custom made products tailored to personalized specifications - crafting a unique identity bolsters individuality, and helps one to stand out from the crowd. I someday want to identify what identity is all about, and highlight the spectrum of influences that make up and shape other people's identities.
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I Want the Sun

For the past two days there has been nothing but doom and gloom in orange county. I HATE IT! I want the sun to come busting through the clouds and warm my blood from these cold rainy days. I want the sun to shine through my bedroom window and wake me up because its in my eyes. haha. I hope this rain soon passes, because i am just not a rain type of person.
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Questionable

Today was very exciting. I went to go test drive two of the cars I am interested in getting. One being the mini cooper and the other being a scion xd. At this current moment I am leaning more towards the scion for due to the size. My dad told me to make my decision over this current weekend. And I'm pretty sure I've made my final decision. So by this time in a couple weeks I will hopefully have a scion xd sitting in my driveway :) I also had to attend a fancy dinner with the fam bam, which included my grandma and my brother's girlfriend. Not to sound like a pessimist, but they just are not my favorite to be around. I found myself to be testy and i guess you could say a bitch. haha. But at least its over now. Since that had ended, I find myself sitting in front a bright lit computer screen and nodding to the music of Q-Tip.
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SHOCKER!

Holy fucking shit. The moms and I got into a little bit of a tiff last night, which entailed for her not talking to me and having the tension be to a level where you can cut it with a knife. Driving home with her was awkward because there was no conversation what so ever. Once we got home i looked at the mail and my dreaded report card came. I was expecting all C's and one B. I opened it up anxiously and i had 3 B's and 2 C's. Seriously I was the happiest person on earth. Showing my mom the most anticipated report card, her face turned from a frown to a smile. haha. Perfect day for my report card to come. Thank you Jesus. haha.
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Sorry Mr. President

I haven't gotten the time to congratulate Mr. Barack Obama on being our first african american president of the United States of America. Mr. Obama I cant wait to see what you can do for our nation in its time of need. Even though i was not able to vote in this years election, i would just like to say that you would have gotten my vote. And a big thanks on your unique voting posters, due to those i made my own :)
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Earth?

So I've been hearing stories about the new 'Google Earth' having to deal with oceans. Seems terribly interesting, and Google executives have been saying how society as a whole does not know a lot about the oceans, which i think is 100% true. I must download this and see for myself.
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Olivia, Quit Collecting Clouds

Every Monday through Friday I have to wake up at 6:30. It is a pain in the butt and I deal with it because I'm somewhat of a morning person. Yet today, i found myself waking up a little earlier and just reflecting and imagining a different world. One where people consisted of optimistic minds and hearts of gold. It was one of those feelings where one just imagines things being totally different, a complete opposite of the current state of time. Then my world disappeared by the sound of my moms voice saying "Ollie its time to wake up" and the pounce of my cat on my stomach.
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HA!

In my opinion, situations involving ex boyfriends are the biggest waste of time. I'm not going to name names, but this one is ridiculous in every possible way. Yes, i did love him when i was going out with him, but now after a of year not dating him and talking to him here and there, my feelings for him have most defiantly disappeared. When talking to him, he would ask questions about what Ive done with other guys, when i wasn't with him. My response to this question entailed me lieing, because most of my actions, lets just say, have not been christian decency. haha. And not to sound cold hearted,but i could care less about him and his opinion towards me. So if he does end up reading this, i hope he laughs cause I'm laughing while writing this. Smile bitch cause I sure am :)
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I Made A Killing

Wowzers! Today was amazing. I told my mom i needed to go shopping due to the factor i had a tons of gift cards. Well we end up going into stores, where i ended up robbing my mom out of her money. haha. She spent over 200 dollars on me and she didn't even think she was going to spend a penny. haha sorry mom. Well today was a success :)
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